Sunday 23 October 2016

Writer's Fest, Diffusing Rose Tea, and Discomfort


     Today I went to the New Shoots event of the Vancouver Writer's Fest. The hour was interesting, listening to literary works by Jeff Steudel - a teacher from Gladstone -, two grade twelve Gladstone students both named Sarah, and Evelyn Lau.

      All of the works presented today played in my mind as if I were the speakers, seeing from their eyes and reliving their memories. It was quite an experience, and I felt the urge to write poetry afterwards, hoping that I could produce something that would submerge others into another world, as the poems and short stories did for me today.


      The first to speak at the podium, Jeff Steudel, presented a poem - a love letter, in his words - to his father. I take this as a sign that I should read more, as I could not understand much of what he said, both to not knowing what words came out of his mouth, and being unable to focus. A tad bit shameful... but what I do recall was him talking about how amazing he thought his father was, for being stung on the eye, by bees whose hive they cut down for the honey, and being completely unfazed by it. He described how his father said they would have a fine batch of honey this time around. The scene was sweet, much like the honey they would have, I quite liked that.

      The first Sarah's poem of rose tea was the easiest to visualize personally. As she spoke about diffusing rose tea, how she could not read the German on the package it came in, how that meant she put too much in a cup, and how it was good to drink with $4.99 Lipton Green Tea, I could see the foreign words and taste the warm liquid. Tea, particularly green, and earl grey, is something I find calming and soothing. It makes those seconds, when I taste the water with the flavour of those leaves, a little slower, a little better. Her poem made me feel the same way.

     The second Sarah presented a short story, one about her grandpa and her careful tread into his well hidden backstory of an orphanage he once lived in. Listening to this was fun, as she incorporated Cantonese words into the story, as I did for a poem I wrote a while ago. It was very clear, the setting her and her grandpa were in, the cold outdoors and darkness approaching.

     Finally, Evelyn Lau came to the podium and presented a poem that started off innocent, into something considerably disturbing. While the imagery of Chinatown and the grandmas that thought little of a small child, to the stack of oranges -which a few cents could pay a pound for-, was vivid, the neutral scenes in my mind were disrupted by what she spoke of next. How a "bum" circling around the store where her parents were grocery shopping, kept touching her under her skirt, between her adolescent legs with his grimy hands, over and over again. I was uncomfortable in my seat, despite being dressed in skinny jeans and a knee length jacket all zipped up. I cannot say I particularly liked her piece, simply based on the discomfort I felt when she spoke of how she thought of it as almost validating, as if she were the guardian to her parents oblivious to the situation. This does not mean I think it was poorly written, in fact, this means the exact opposite.


     It was an interesting experience, one filled with emotions that ranged from very good to disturbing. I am anticipating the poetry unit, hoping that I too can write something that moves others the way today's works moved me. I want to submerge others into a world I create with deliberate strokes of my pen, and I want them to remember that feeling or scene that emerges in their head when they hear what I write. For now though, I have chemistry and art homework awaiting my attention.

Saturday 8 October 2016

Autumn Meets a Water Body




Fragile flakes of gold,
Floating atop crystalline
Transparent cyan.

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     As I was walking by this, I had a feeling of, "What a beautiful occurrence, despite the simplicity of plain, drying leaves to fall into the fountain next to the tree it once grew on".  I had to turn back, as with every step, I thought, "Even if this turns out to be a plain image, I will not forget what I felt when I viewed this happening, that most would not bat an eyelash at".

     I wonder now if something like this is important, if seeing the beauty - or perhaps, desperately (?), foolishly(?) searching for what can be "beautiful" of common occurrences- matters, or will matter. Cézanne saw what other did not, in apples. He romanticized, worshipped, adored, loved these fruits (that have been more expensive to buy in bulk lately at Costco). He painted the common fruit in various lighting and settings, admiring the lush reds fade into ambers. Maybe we say this man understood a bit more than others. That he understood the beauty of things we take for granted in life, but do we really mean it? Somewhere inside, we also think, "They are but fruit, nutritious, sweet, crunchy too sometimes, but nothing more, nothing less".  I wonder if those golden leaves in the neighbourhood fountains matter. Of course they don't. But... they do.